Why the person who hurt always is me?

Why the person who pain always is me?
Did u all knw?
Hurt and pain will make someone dun like to take care everything...
Did u all knw when u all are doing this to me?

Why?
What is the reasons that u all give me ?
I need to cry or i need to angry?
Did u all knw that i am crying when i typing?
Everytime i tell myself this is a joke this onli a joke... dun care about it!
But how?
Ho wu all treat me?
Better than last time?
Worst than last time?
Tell me can?

God,

Everytime u give me another road that everytime i become like that...
Now?
Why you didn't give me?
U also feel tired and started lazy to bother me?
Pls...
Can you dun feel tired to me?
T.T
I am very suffer for somethg..
God, can you pls help me?
I reli need ur help...
T.T

When i was born ,is it aredi fixed that i will hurt by other??
God, isn't you planned it?
T.T

Always sick sick sick
What did my body lack of?
-.-''

我天真...
我单纯...
我傻到去相信你们说的话....
Fine!!
有时真的很想什么都不去做...
什么都不要理...
过着一些堕落的生活..
我不是脾气暴躁...
只是我不想去理而已！！
我说过了一些东西就算...
我懒惰，不想去理会，更加不想一个一个去解释！！

是～
我是..
我是比其他人都还要小只，还要矮
不代表我思想真的像小孩子...
我的思想甚至比你们还要成熟！

家里穷..
什么都试过...
好不容易现在生活好过一点
姐姐又在上大学
什么都是钱，钱，钱
我不是在乎钱
是尝试过了穷的滋味
人家努力，我就比别人努力过10倍

Interview那天，
问有什么优点，
我讲不出
缺点，
讲了一大堆

我不想搞到自己酱自卑
个个都说我要有自信
自信？
这两个字在我身上你们会看不到
朋友都会叫我要 Be confident
我不是要emo
我也不想的

If the bus forever didn't stop ,
that is so good....
: )

Deeper Deeper Deeper and Deeper...

你好吗？
我不敢过问你的事～
你总是给我一种很神秘的感觉...
在别人眼中
我们是很好很好的朋友..
但我不明白，甚至不知道你在想什么....

你甚至没有发觉到我最近有没有什么不妥...
算了....

其实...
我不懂会不会有人来看啦...
不过照写 XDD

首先，
说一声对不起，
我真的过不到我自己心里那关...
我知道我很牛，很倔.....
我说一就一, 说二就二...

第二...
再说一声对不起....
很尴尬～
同班....
坐我前面....
不好意思开口说话....

...................................................................................................................

我其实不想上学嗒 ～
T.T
要我设计什么简介册的封面哇～
我不会啊～
Miss Yong
放过我啦～
我连简介册的内容都还没做~
要我一个礼拜赶完？
不能啊～

SMI Gathering

SMI Gathering is over
I am veri happy for this time SMI Gathering
Haha
Although it was very tired.....
But it was a good experience for a guide....

Can go there to see how the othe ppl use backwood cooking to cook food
And their banner, dance, highlight and so on~
So high today!!
Especially free dance, relax!!!
Relax make me happy all the way~

Last~
SMI!!!
I will come again!!!

Pls stop...
Pls stop to use ur weird eyesight to see me~
Ok??

什么世界末日？！
一塌糊涂 !
荒谬！！

现在我还活生生的坐在电脑面前写博客，听歌咯！

.............

I am very nervous about my exam tomorrow!!!!
T.T

2011-05-19

昨天，

度过了一个14年来最开心的生日，

收到了很多朋友的祝福，

当然同时也收到了来自你的祝福，

真的是很很很开心的一天。。。

有得信息告诉我生日快乐，

有些打电话，

有些在网上告诉我，

有些面对面告诉我，

真的很感谢你们哦～

还有，

谢谢一位跟我 一起补习不过又大我一年的哥哥

谢谢你送我的那件衣服哦，

真的很美

很喜欢

忘了你说特地在吉隆坡还是怡保买给我

真的谢谢哦

我懂那件衣服很贵,

你还是破费地送我

谢谢哦～

再一次谢谢给予我祝福的朋友～

谢谢你们～

有你们真好～

唯一一天不会Emo就是今天了～

I knw that i am a veri useless girl....
I knw that i am a veri stupid girl....
I knw that i am a veri lazy girl......
But....
Can u all dun remind me abou these??
I juz wan to live happy, and try to not to be sad in my life...

And,
sometimes,
my friends is alwaz remind me is veri useless, stupid, and lazy.......
I knw that i am not enough good to be in 2 Emas.....
I juz wan to try my best to do it.....
Juz veri easy, pls dun give me pressure and give me a feel that i am useless....
Pls~
Today is teacher's day~
Many people can take their netbook~
But,
u knw there is a little bit unfair?
So wealthy can get,
how about the poor 1?
1 word - CNT
 I can talk mani mani in my class,
But i choose to be diam diam in my class until the bell rang.....
It is good to be a silent guy at class.....
I dun like to talk manii mani,
And i dun like to explain if someone misunderstand me...
So lazy to explain to everyone.....
So, juz let it be la~






 

Still gt 8 days for my birthday~~ ^.^

But, still gt 10 days for my exam oni.... T.T

Oh No!!

But i nt scared....

I am juz worried about my Science and Sejarah oni~~

Haizz....

I am super super nt worried about my Bahasa Cina lo~~

Coz,

my super geng subject is BC~~

Hehe

I can dun go to FACEBOOK thr...

But,

I cnt dun write my blog~

Juz like my diary....

Sunday ask my mum can give me goo loat world anot,, she say can....

But,

today ask again~

She say cnt!!!

Y!!

T.T

My lost world trip had gone away~

Haixx...

Nvm~

Juz stay at home lo~

if nt?

Ntg do jorr~~

: (    : (    : (    : (   :  (   : (

Count down~

为我的生日倒数9天，

今天9号了 ！！

还有9天，就还有9天而已！！

倒数自己生日的同时，

当然要倒数一下考试的时间，

还有11天～

就要考试了～

我很怕考到不好～

每天读读读～

读到我傻了～

我的死穴～

历史！！

让我头疼了～

呵呵～

最近又发作了，

不会笑～

在班没什么讲话～

=.=

朋友（给一位朋友）

呵呵，

你影响不了我的，

我耐力很好的哦，

所以我不会让你影响我成为一个 TG~

我知道你为我好～

我知道你看到我整天都不开心，

所以每一个星期的体育节都来跟我谈天～

就真的只有你看得出～

你告诉我，

成为一个飓会比较开心，

不过是看个人的

我没有想要歧视你的意思，

就，

我觉得现在的我很好，

虽然整天都 不开心，

但，

我只想保持原状，

不想做任何改变~

明白吗？

^.^

想快快考完试，

就可以去 Camp Trip~

这是唯一让我能放松的机会～

我一定要去～

这几天，

热到，

好像烤面包酱，

就快把我给烤熟了～

一时又下大大雨，

一时又晒晒～

=.='''

最近爱上了张云京的歌～～

一天听几次，

连我老妈都问 ： 你一天听酱多次， 不闷嗒？

我说 ： 好听不是不闷咯～

她的歌很有意思，

连我blog里的歌都换了他的歌～～

疯了我～

哈哈～

不过，

是真的好听嘛～

 : P

Count downing 11 days for my birthday...

Haha

Actually is ntg special at my birthday la...

Oso have to go to school....

Coz is Tuesday~~

So bad~~

Birthday at Tuesday....

I hope that i will nt sick again at my birthday...

Last year birthday,

Sick dou me onli sleep in the bed onli :(

Haizz...

So,

May god bless me :(

And another thgs....

A new techer had cuming to ur skul~~

Teach ur BC for 4 months....

Walau~~

Introduce mei introduce lo~~`

Still wan special a bit geh.... =.='''

And i aredi had somethg to do in my holiday....

That is write BC essay for the skul magazines.....

Can i dun write??

Y so mani people didn't choose, wan to choose me? =.='''

Walau A~~

The Cikgu Mat Sam when enter our class didn't teach us anythgs....

Aredi 5 moths aredi....

What did he teach??

He teach NTG!!!

Enter the class then onli write on the whiteboard that what should we do... =.=''''

And he knw that some students are playing outside, go out and see but dun call them bec...

He juz go bec and sit in front of the table and do his thgs~

Walau~~

How cum he can like tat....

I aredi beh tahan....

I had been veri long time didn't study sivik at class aredi....

I am worried about my Sejarah~

Tat stupid Aida out form 1 questions for 20 !!!

Is 20 for form 1......

and juz 30 for form 2 onli....

And she didn't teach again....

Today she had been tell us which students will teach us the next chapter....

Walau~

We still dun knw what didshe angry lo...

When she was in happy mood, joke wif her oso can...

But,

when she was in bad mood, she will scold us, scold us for 1 period, until finish school...

=.=''''

Aiyoyoy.... Beh tahan la~~~

And i muz pray for my lovely sister....

She had been hurt his backbone... :(

And she nw is at KL.....

My dad, um and I is worrying about her....

May God Bless Her la~~

Get well soon ya....

Todays....

My exam date is 20!!!

Oh no!!!

But i knw....

I am better than my frens that are in form3....

They will start their exam tomorrow....

So,

Still is that senTence la....

ADD OIL AND GAMBATEH FOR UR EXAM!

I knw that this sentence maybe is bored....

But i like tis sentence veri much......

One thing~

I feel more and more pressure this few month.....

PJ with my best reinds - Shen Lynn today,

We talk mani and mani,

And she ask me : " y u this few month look like dun happy?"

Me say : " ya meh? i oso dunno.... "

She say : " if reli gt somethg dun happy juz say to me and cry at me oso can..... pls dun keep in ur heart..

                u will veri suffer....

Shen Lynn.....

I wan to say thousand of thank you to you......

U are the person that knw me are nt happy aredi few months......

I had been cryy in front of you and chow chow....

Juz the 1st time...

Coz tat day i am reli unhappy...

Thank you Shen Lynn and Chow Chow hear me say anything.....

And i have to thx god....

Give me so mani good frens...

Wei wei, Ray Ray, Sunny, San, Dragon, Quan, Thong, Shen Lynn, Bei Qi, Chow Chow.....

Have u all enough.....

Becoz i can trust all of u.....

I can say my secret out with u all....

If others,

Maybe i will talk too much to them....

Chow Chow and Shen Lynn had quarrel....

So, i hope Shen Lynn will nt angry Chow Chow....

Maybe she juz a joke...

So,

Pls frogive her........

gt some best frens in ur class for you?

Gt~~~

Three person.....

Quan, Thong, Bei Qi.....

Quan and Thong are the 1st two boys that i trust them veri much~~

Becoz of the GBBM camp.....

We do the best best frens in class......

How about Bei Qi?

Haha...

A veri nice girl leh.....

Go toilet?

Together...

Chit Chat?

Together....

I can even talk mani thgs about myself to her......

She is a veri hardworking, clever, beautiful, nice girl...

So,

QUAN, THONG, BEI QI....

BEST FRENS FOREVER YA.....

HAHA.....

Still is that sentece la....

Hope that my frens tat are exam -ing GAMBATEH and ADD OIL!!!

Go to do pig lurr~~

Bye Bye

" Sum Tam "

Friends???

Freinds this word sometimes make me so " sum tam "

See clearly!!

Is " sum tum " !!!

Friends is the people that you see the most everyday....

They can chit chat with you, laugh with you......

So, for me,

NW!!

Some friends nw for me is nt important!

IS IMPORTANT!

I hate tis feel~

I so hate this feel!

And some realatives,

from KL back to Kampar gt pass through my house oso didn't visit us....

Juz becoz we poor???

Today i juz simply ask my mum.....

Me : mum, y some relatives a few years oso didn't cum here geh?

Mum : They gt back Kampar, oso gt pass through our house, but they didn't visit us

It is over many years ago,

Y they still like tat....

U all knw like wat?

Juz like "the dog eyes see  people veri low!"

Y?

Y juz wan visit the relatives that rich in Kampar and dun wan to visit us??

Becoz u all see tat me and my family still live in the broken house??!!

Broken house nt house??

Poor people nt people??

My laptop that i am using is my father go and lend people for my sis to go for universiti.....

And nw,

My sis gt a free laptop and her laptop given to me.....

I am veri angry about this!!

Ok, i knw u are veri rich....

So?

Can u like us so happy everyday?

Maybe u cnt...

But we can.....

Although we are poor,

but we are happy all the time...

See carefully!!!

Is HAPPY ALL THE TIME!!!

So,

I aredi vent out at my blog.....

And nw i have been cool down.,....

Hoo~~

Today

Congrats to my lovely frens that are in relationship oh~

Haha~

U and her are a veri awesome couple~

And a lengzai lengzai geh couple~

So,

wish that always happy la~

I will nt easy to in a relationship in secondary,

becoz of that relationship,

it make me had a black shadow forever...

Beisides me gt a lot of friends that treat me veri gud,

it is enough for me,

juz wat i need is juz a freinship...

But....

what will happen future ?

Nobody knw..

Juz god knw....

Juz let the god to do the arrangements......

^^

Mother's Day cuming~

And i aredi had my plan to give my mother a surprise~

And i had been say many times that i had to revision~

But until nw oso haven't start yet~

See my form 3 frens they all are veri hardworking to do revision~

So,

i have to do so~

To make my result ecellent this time~

Last,

wish my frens tat have to exam soon,

GOOD LUCK!!!!

We add oil together :)

Erm....

Tis for today la~

Haha~

See you~

Labour Day Holiday

Tomorrow no skul leh~~~
So Sienzzzz.......
At home???
Muz at home la
Nobody date me pun~
So tomorrow,
At home read my book lonely~~~

I love to with my lovely friends~~
They make me laugh and laugh and laugh~~
With them,
i will never sad de lo~~~
But,
sometimes i have disappointed with SOME friends...
If i didn't say anything from start tuitioning until the end~~~
They will nt knw that i juz sit behind them~~
They will nt even ask that what happen to me~~~
Y suddenly absent~~~`
Me juz like air~~~~
Cnt been seen by people~~~

Exam give me so much pressure aredi~~~~
I knw my dad and mum wan me to gud in my study~~~
So i had been veri hardworking~~~
But~~~
Wat i had do they oso even cnt see~~~

Wat they had say to me???
Ur sister is better than u~
Beautiful than u~
Clever than u~
Y i can born u like tis??

Dad and mum,
U knw tat tis few sentence heart me a lot???
Is tat  i nt ur daughter??
Me oso is u two born geh!
Tis few sentence make me cry alot~~

今天打打闹闹又一天了~~

感觉上没做过什么事情

时间过得很快

要五月了

就只是那么的一瞬间~~~

考试又来了

讨厌自己一个人读书的感觉

房间静静的

屋子里就只有我一个在读书

其他人都在睡觉

我家

不算什么大家庭

一屋四人

家里的小孩就只有我~~

爸妈总是当我是小学生（高度问题）

以为我总是什么都不懂

家里发生的大事小事我都懂

只是我不说出口而已~~

我长大就证明了爸妈开始老了~~

老爸赚钱养家~~

老妈每天老早就起身做家务~~

而我呢？

我要把书读好~~

虽然不能像我姐那样聪明~~

只要我有努力过就可以了~~~

至少我曾经努力过~~

总比那些没有努力的好很多~~~

什么事都不要理了，

把书读好就好~~

不管人家的闲言闲语~~

管它的，

嘴巴生在人家那里，

能阻止吗？

不能

看透了，

把一切都看透了~~~~

I feel very pressure to my exam that cuming soon!!!!!
:(

最近开始EMO了，

是因为最近很少见你的关系吗？

就只是一两句的问候，

有时候甚至擦肩而过

是真的从身边走过那种

要考试了，

你应该很忙吧？

在我读书的时候，

脑里有时会闪过你的样子

考试要到了，

也因为很多原因，

我要把你给忘记，

就像朋友一样，

见到你我就会闪，

不会跟你打招呼。。。

你也有喜欢的人了，

是你自己告诉我的，

我鼓励你跟她讲，

你看得上眼的，

应该会是很聪明，很美的女生，对吧？

呵呵，

不管怎样，

你也应该告诉她啊~~

不管她的反应怎样~~

至少能给自己一个交代啊~~~~~

我永远支持你哦~~~

加油~~

祝你考试顺利~~~ ^.^

人生中,

可能会有许许多多的朋友陪在你身边。

但，

这些朋友当中，

有谁，

是真正的了解自己的呢？

这些了解自己的朋友，

通常我们称他为“知心”。

对吧？

今天上来这里的目的是什么啊？

我自己也不知道。。。。

病到头昏脑胀~~~~

辛苦到~~~

 我真的很EMO啦~~~

大概有一个多月心情都是很糟糕~~

连我妈都说问最近怎么了

很想变回以前的我啊！！！

开开心心的，那多好啊！！！

开始长大了，

烦恼也越来多。。。。

前几天真的忍不住，

跑去给 Pn. Teoh 辅导，

我真的觉得我很有问题，

可是根她谈了这么久，

她说我真的没问题

=.=

到现在，我真的觉得自己非常无能！！！！

两个字— 没用！！

你们认同吗？

我知道你们很认同~~~

What is me for you?
I had choose the right position for me and you~~
I put my feel to you in my heart~~

We are best friend~~
Maybe u will dun mind that i got feel to you~~
But how if you mind???
Thats mean our friendship will over~~
I don't wan our friendship over~~

So that i put myb feel to you in my heart~~
I sad becoz of you~~

I emo becoz of you~~

I happy because of you~~

What i had do is because of you~~

Forget that when i had feel to you~~
But i will nt forget shen we know each other~~
Because of that event~~

We had know each other~~

I cannot stop to had feel to you~~~

I am suffer~~
Our relationship is juz like borther sister~~
I oso knw that u oni treat me like sister~~

When i am sad~~

U will say joke to me and make me smile~~~

So,

For nw~~~

I oso wan to treat you like my brother~~

That's all

I dun wan to thk too much about me and you~~~

Wish tat our ferinship will nt stop~~~

FRIENSHIP FOREVER!!!!

糟糕！

凌晨三点钟！

还没睡啊！

熊猫眼肯定又出来了！

躺着没事做，

让我想到很多事勒~~

我想到~~~~

上个月去营的时候~~

前一天收拾东西

真的是啊！！

弄到我头都大

都不懂怎样收拾

收拾了差不多两个小时

=.=

我差不多每天都会更新呃。。。

好像写日记酱~~~

给朋友弄到我很想学乐器了啦！

有什么乐器是去到哪里都可以带。。。很容易学。。。又不用考试的？

路过的~~

给下建议~~

Exam!!!

Exam!!!

Exam!!!

When i hear tis word

I will veri scared about it

Everytime before the days tat wan to exam

I will cnt sleep become..........INSOMNIA!!!!

Haizz....

So scared about exam la~~~

How cum will like tis~~

Reli a stupid and useless yan!!!

Tis few days veri lazy to do homework leh....

But cnt dun do leh~~~

Hmmm....

And my.......  SJ PORJEK!!!!

Haizzz.....

Still is tat sentence tat i alwaz say out.....

Haven't do yet!!!

Actually i knw how to do......

But...... I dun knw how to start..... dun knw start from whr

=='''''

Speechless to myself la~~~~

Freind!!!!
I want to tell u!!!!
U are veri brave!!!!!
U!
Are a person tat veri gud!
Remember tis!

Hmmm......
Emo jor veri long time~~~
Y?
Tis feel when can disappeared?
When?
Can tell me when?

I try to do wat did u like,
I try to like the idol wat did u like.
Becoz,
i wan to have the same topic to chat wif you ~~~

Hate myself!!!!
Like a rubbish!!!
Rubbish Yan!!!!
Useless!!!
Brainless!!!!

How cum i will stupid like tat ah???!!!
Stupid!!!
Stupid!!!
Stupid like a pig!!!

Like a rubbish!!!
No use!!!!!
Nop!!!!
Is rubbish oso more use than me!!!!
How cum will like tat???!!
All is my fault!!!
Lazy!!!

Cum On!!!
Be serious!!!
Dun ply again!!!!

I feel that i like a sopo
Alwaz thinking of u and go and see ur profile
Am i becum crazy becoz of u ?
Yes, i aredi crazy becoz of u~~
everyday i miss u so much
Thinking tat the days that we alwaz chit chat
I like u maybe is nt forever, but is for nw....

I no brave to say to u about my feel to u ~~~
Can you hear it tat i like u ?
Can You?
This is the 1st time tat i had a feel to a ppl tat i alwaz miss and alwaz to see his status updates in fb.......

无端端告诉我考试提前~~

我要Pengsan了~~

运动会又延迟了~~

什么 1 Sukan 嘛~~

难到延迟就会每一天都运动咩~~

真是超级无言~~~

哈哈，

前天在班，晓栋没事做，竟然做起了诗圣来~~

真是给他炸到~~

来看看他的“杰作”吧~~~

1. 你的拒绝让我痛心，但我不曾放心，我只有隐藏伤心的我，来哄你开心，祈求的只是你的一眸之笑。。。。

2. 远离的心，把我与你的联系冻结，无法逾越的心房，彻底把我冷落，我做在无人的角落，喝着痛心的咖啡，心里，脑里，想着的都是我们甜蜜的回忆。。。。。

3. 失去了你，并不可惜， 但愿你，能让我陪在你左右，我不会太靠近，也许会远离， 不管怎样都会默默支持你， 不再让你伤心，也不再让你。。。。。痛心

4. 我躺在沙发上，想着爱情的定义，不管对与错，我也会不管任何理由，不顾一切地深爱着你。。。。。

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对于他的“杰作”，

我真的觉得很好笑，

看他的样子，

真的不像是那么地有文采。。。。

哈哈，

无言+炸到

听老师说，

会提前一个星期考试，

听朋友说，

是这个月尾。。。

不管是那一个对，

能不要酱早吗？

T.T

今天对我来说是一个很难得的经验

去到了地摩华民小学里帮忙

超赞的！！！

不过今天在那边有点不在状况中

就其实我自己也不懂自己做莫哦

每天总会有一段时间是有点Down的

可能又是不够睡的关系吧~~

不敢说出自己对你的感觉

就酱把他带过吧~~~

现在还是很好的朋友

不想说了从朋友变成陌生人

所以我选择了从现在起把你忘记。。。。

我相信我能做到~~~~

可能就想我一个朋友所说的一句话

我习惯有你。。。

就只是一种习惯~~

看到有一个文章说。。。

如果你睡觉会把手机放在身旁

就代表你很没有安全感。。。

对此

我很认同

因为

每天晚上如果电话不是放在我身旁会睡不着

如过有时我那天会带电话上学的话我那天就真的真的对我来讲很没有安全感

就到这里啦，

表达能力差，

不会说

^^

营之后～～
不懂是不是大家都习惯了聚在一起，
营后天天都聚在一起，
讲真，
我超喜欢的。
大家朋友之间有说有笑，
很开心。。。
你，
可以说我静有可以说我不静，
但，
我玩起来会是很癫的那种。。。。
很想每一天都会是那种青团运开完会然后一起去吃东西的那种日子。。。。
那该多好啊。。。
哈哈


现在给大家看看我在营里的几张照片吧～～

我组用报纸设计的衣服～～ 美吧～

介绍海报的时候

我们的膳食主任

我们的秘书小姐

学员用餐的时候

我们的帅气营长

我们和蔼可亲的医疗姐姐

我们搞笑的保安主任

我组的海报

我的好友ray ray

～ 哈哈

我们的帅气营长加一个严肃的纪律主任

我的拍档—威威先生~

呵呵。。。。 我带我的营员上厕所被偷拍

我的好友—佩珊

我们的团康—龙帅哥

我的好友—紫晴帅哥

呵呵～

其实还有很多哦～

哈哈~

其实到现在，

还是很想念在营里的生活，

虽然只在营里三天两夜，

但已让我很难忘记，

我们一起吃饭，跳团康，等等。。。

真的很想再去多一次～

能，

肯定有机会，

就明年吧～～

哈哈～

今天庆功宴哦～～

超好玩～

东西也好好吃～

然后我们就一直拍照～

真的超享受。。。。

哈哈～

今天就到此为止吧～

^.^